MIA

Hey y'all! Sorry the posts haven't been frequent lately. My grandpa isn't doing so well so I have been working and then driving back and forth to the hospital. Till I can catchup let me know if you would like to do a guest post next week! I would love to have you!! You can email me at cdecker0 at gmail.com 

Follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0 

So What Wednesday!!!

Thank you sweet baby Jesus for hump day! This mama is exhausted from school! So I'm linking up for So What Wednesday!!

                                           

  

* So what if I'm too tired to stick to my cleaning plan. I mean who has time for a clean house anyway?! Not this chicka! Bring on the wine and bubble bath, because ain't nobody got time for cleaning. 

* So what if every time I watch Pretty Little Liars for days I feel like "A" is everywhere. Have I mentioned that I HATE being scared!? And seriously!? Ezra is A!? I can't wait till October!

* So what if I gave up on potty training until October. This summer was terrible and we are gone half the month of September. I will conquer this in October! 

* So what if one of my goals for next week, will be to go to bed before 9! Teaching is exhausting! Come try it out for a day if you don't believe me! 

Have a great rest of the week!! Follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0 

Weekly Goals because I'm back in action!

It's Monday which means you can start a diet today, as well as make some goals ( everyone knows you must start on a Monday.)

Goal one: 

  Water!! Today is also my first day with students so I can't really go to the bathroom whenever I want, but I'm going to try my best to drink my big Tervis tumbler full of water before lunch and then at least one after lunch while I'm at school. 

Goal two:

  Exercise! 30 day shred is my frienemy and I plan on tackling this! 

Goal three: 

  Low carb lunches and no more Almond Joys in the afternoon. They taste so stinkin good though! If only they were calorie free they would be all my diet consisted of.

HUGE shout out to Operation Skinny Jeans for giving my blog a facelift! She is seriously so inspirational and extremely sweet! 

P.S. Wasn't Nsync stinking amazing last night!? I seriously couldn't stop smiling for hours!! I puffy heart them and hope there is a reunion in the near future!!

Friday Fail

Normally I would be linking up for Five on Friday, however lately I'm really struggling to find 5 things I love.

I weighed last night for the first time in a WHILE and HOLY COW!! I weigh 20 pounds HEAVIER than I did a year ago. 

The dress that I worked so hard to fit in by the first day of school will be hanging in the closet on Monday because I didn't work like I should have. 

My goal of doing the 30DS in August was a fail. 

Truth:

I'm a little sad and feeling sorry for myself. 

Truth: 

I'm going to throw a pity party for tonight, but Monday morning I'm back in action! 

Truth: 

I will stop complaining, stop making excuses, and just do it!

Be looking for my post this weekend about meal planning and grocery shopping!! I'm ready to do this once and for all! Follow along with me and hold me accountable!

Follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0

So What Wednesday!

Linking up for So What Wednesday!

 

• So what if all I can think about is getting my new dress from The Zig Zag Stripe, and how I'm so sad it won't be here for the first day of school. Go check out their amazing clothes! They come in plus sizes too!!
• So what if the Princess wore her PJ's to daycare twice this week. She looks so darn cute in the mornings I hate waking her up!!

• So what if I haven't weighed since before I went on vacation, a week and a half ago. I am all with Amber over at Crafty Healthy Mom - you must start eating healthy on the first of the month! So September 1st I will be back in action!!

Go link up with Shannon today for So what Wednesday and check out her super cute new addition!

 

As always, follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0

 

Baby I was born this way...

I watched Extreme Makeover Weightloss Edition on TV the other night and I started to think. How did I get to this weight? What happened in my life to make me eat until I have ruined my body? I thought really hard and for a really long time- I wanted someone or something to blame. But I can't think of anything. 

The first diet I went on was in 6th grade when my parents bought me weight watchers. A boy in my class had began to call me heifer and moo at me so my parents let me join weight watchers. I don't remember how that went, but I do know that once I got to junior high I was still chunky because I was then called "jelly donut". In high school I started doing medifast where I lost a significant amount of weight. My friends took notice, boys took notice, and I felt fabulous. I remember feeling so skinny at around 140 pounds. High school came and went, college came and went, I got married, had a baby, and here I am still overweight. 

I really wanted someone to blame - I really wanted to have an "excuse" for being fat, but the truth is this is my fault! This is the result of me not loving myself enough to take care of my body. This is a result of pure laziness. One of the doctors on the show said that having one parent who suffers from obesity increases your child's risk of being overweight by 50%. I must change this! I have to change her family tree. 

Today I'm owning that being over weight is my fault. I got myself this way and only I can change that. Here's to it ALMOST being the weekend and another fresh start!! 

Bring on the Routine!!

Weight loss has been put on the back burner for me the last couple months weeks, but now school is back in session and I'm back to a routine! 

I get up around 4:45-5:30, depending on how tired I am or if I want to do my hair or not so I'm trying to figure out a way to get my booty out of bed in the morning and workout. I am NOT a morning person. I enjoy getting up, drinking a cup of coffee, and then lazily taking my time to get ready. I hate getting up and immediately stressing out. I like to ease into my day. So how does a person who is like this start to work out in the morning? Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated!! I know that if I don't workout first thing, I will be WAY too tired to do it when I get home. 2nd graders wear me out!!

I have also done a bit of meal planning, which I'm SUPER proud of. I planned out all my meals for the rest of August, and first couple weeks of September. One of my biggest down falls is eating out. I come home from work - my feet hurt, I'm tired, cranky, and all I want to do is eat my feelings Mexican. Having a meal plan with lots of crock pot meal ideas will hopefully help me.

So here's to starting over, getting serious, and not giving up.

Be looking for my posts on some new healthy meals I plan on trying. 

As always follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0

Phone Dump Monday

I'm back to the grind today after what seems the shortest summer ever.

Friday we returned from vacation where I went into full panic mode knowing that I had to have everything put back together and ready to go by Monday! 

Friday night I made this little gem for my classroom. My first DIY project of the summer two days before it's over. So ashamed....

Saturday morning I let my baby Daddy sleep in while the Princess and I snuggled on the couch. 

Saturday night we went out with some friends and their kiddos for dinner and them headed back to our house for a bonfire. I don't know where y'all live, but the weather here in the Midwest has been AMAZING!! I am taking advantage of it everyday I can!

Sunday we went to church and then I spent the day cleaning. My house is a hot mess (look for that post soon) so I had to do something. I then laid out my outfits and the Princesses outfits for the week. I ended my weekend by enjoying my final bubble bath of the summer.

Not too much fun here, but it was definitely relaxing. 

Bring on the Red Bull friends because 4:45 comes early and sometimes you need something more than coffee. Have a great work week y'all!!

Follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0

Five on Friday

Linking up with Darci for Five on Friday today.

As my summer comes to an end I want to reflect on all the things I loved about my summer!

                                     {ONE}

We got the Princess a new swing set for her Birthday and she loved it. We spent so much time outside enjoying the awesome weather we have had. I will miss swinging every morning before we would go on a walk. 

                               {TWO}

Laying out by the pool! Vacation is over and school starts Monday. I'm sure going to miss this relaxation!!

                  {THREE}

Snap chat!? Gotta love this app! You can send the most inappropriate pictures and they only last for 10 seconds. Amazing! This photo is courtesy of the Dixie Stampede and my sister!

                 {FOUR}

 

Starbucks and Caramel. Enough said!

             {FIVE}

As much as I love summer, I'm so very excited to start a new school year with my new kiddos! I love getting ready for them!!

Hope you all have a great weekend and I will see you back here bright and early on Monday morning!!

Don't forget to follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0

So What Wednesday!!

Linking up with Shannon for So What Wednesday again!!

* So what if I have eaten Andy's frozen custard TWICE this week! It was delicious and I don't really regret it! Neither did this little one, who ate ice cream at midnight. Bad parenting!!

* So what if it took us 3x to take a picture of ourselves. We're bad at the selfie thing!

* So what if the only thing I will be doing today is laying out. I need to be thinking about school, and school, and school again, but I will do that on Friday when I get back to town and will probably have a panic attack! 

*So what if The Princess hasn't gone to bed before 10 all week. Next week I will for sure regret this decision, but for now we are making the most of our last week of summer. 

Happy Hump Day y'all! 

Raising healthy kids in a fat world

As I put my daughter in her new yellow polka dot bikini yesterday I wondered how I'm going to raise her to have healthy eating habits and a healthy mind set about her body in a world where wears surrounded by a twisted view of beautiful. 

Growing up my mom always had something to say about weight. If it wasn't about mine it was about my dads - who by the way wears a size 32 waist band and is by no means overweight. I think this is one reason why I'm so self conscious, but also because every person in my family is of "normal" size. 

Once I had my daughter I immediately  started worrying. I don't want her to struggle with her weight like I do. I don't want her to ever feel less than beautiful. I don't want her to go through the pain of feeling less than adequate. My husband and I decided immediately that she wouldn't be given sugar or processed foods. We wanted to raise her to make healthy choices in hopes that that would help with the whole weight thing. I struggle everyday with food and I don't want her to do that. 

So how do I, who have such horrible self esteem, raise a child to have great self esteem? How do you explain to your child why they aren't getting ice cream when everyone else is? How do you all deal with this? 

Weekly Goals Linkup

Weekly Goals Link up with Operation Skinny Jeans is back on this week! I'm on vacation, but I've got goals this week! I must keep myself from gaining 15 pounds and eating whatever my heart desires.




Goal one:
 Get moving!! I must workout for at least 30 minutes a day. This I have already accomplished this Monday morning by doing 2 miles on the treadmill. So at least I have one day down!

Goal two:
  No more drinking my calories! Summer is almost over so the beer drinking must stop! (Just kidding) But for reelz I can't function like a normal human being and drink. I don't really drink in moderation.

Goal three:
   Survive a week of vacation with a two year old! Isn't she adorable!?

   

Go link up!!

Self Worth

I'm struggling with finding my self worth. I have lost and gained weight so many times its ridiculous. I set goals for myself and fail within hours. I have been so hard on myself this summer. I have based my happiness on whether or not I ate well or screwed up. Even as I write this tears are being shed. I'm so unhappy with my self, but yet still continue to screw up.

Someone today asked me if I would give up 25% of my income to look the way I want to and honestly I don't think I would. I'm a fat girl with a fat girl mind set. Sometimes I'm embarrassed to be seen in public places with my family because I feel bad that they have to be seen with me. I feel like such an embarrassment to my family and friends. I don't think that losing weight would make me happy. I think I need to find my self worth in God before I can ever be happy.

This is such a hard post for me because it's real. I have to die to myself daily and start living for God or I will never be happy. The emptiness I feel cannot be filled by losing weight. I need a mind and heart change.

I leave for vacation today and I'm not sure my thoughts since I've been so unhappy lately, but I really want to try my best to live for God and let everything else fall into place. I need to be happy. I need to find my self worth.

So What Wednesday...

I'm SOOO over this week! I really just want to be a fat lard for the next two weeks and eat all my feelings since school starts in TWO weeks and I'm stressed to the max!!


So on to SO what Wednesday!!

• So what if school starts in two weeks, and I am refusing to go to school to set up.

• So what if my August goal was to do the 30 day shred for 30 days and it's August 6th and I've done ZILCH! I've thought about it! Does that count??

• So what if I should be cleaning my house and packing for vacation, but instead I'm sitting on the couch blogging and watching Pretty Little Liars (I may or may not be addicted.)

• So what if I bought three new dresses this summer and haven't worn them once. I may or may not have been a little optimistic about the sizing. Can I just say this has been a horrible weight loss summer!

I hate to be ungrateful for my awesome teaching job and having summers off, but it has seemed like the longest yet shortest summer of my life. I love spending time with my daughter and love being able to do whatever I want, but I am also ready to get back to my routine! I have to get this weight off. I have to become healthy and I have to quit making excuses!

Weekend Recap and Phone Dump

Good Morning Yall! Hope you had a great weekend! Ours was filled with busy craziness! Normally I would be linking up with Operation Skinny Jeans for my weekly goals, but lezz be honest.. I haven't really been hitting those goals and this week I will be getting ready for vacation so I know that it will be an unpredictable week.

Thursday I took the Princess to a water park close to where we live. She had a blast!

We had to stop and take a selfie!

We also had an ice cream treat. This is her "cheese" face.

 Friday we headed to Springtown to meet some friends. Their daughter just turned one so we met for dinner and some frozen yogurt!

Shirt from Target!

 

Saturday we had some friends over. They have three girls and this is the aftermath of 4 little girls all under the age of 7. You can definitely tell they had fun!!

 

 

Hope you guys had a great weekend as well! Tomorrow look for my post about getting ready for a week of vacation with a two year old!!

 

Follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0

 

 

Five on Friday

Follow my blog with Bloglovin


Liking up for Five on Friday again!!

1. I'm obsessed with a new book written by one of my friends about adoption! I read the whole book in one night. It's a must read for anyone thinking about adoption!

Love Connection by Jamie Ward and Lesa Childress

2. SLEEP!!! About twice a year I wear out and right now is one of those times. I'm exhausted. My body physically hurts and I have a constant headache. I just need a good couple days to relax and sleep! Somehow even though I don't work during the summer I am just as tired as I am during the school year. Crazy!! Anyone else so busy?


3. My new coffee maker! I love being able to make one cup of coffee at a time and in any flavor! The donut shops coconut mocha is my favorite. It's like desert in your mouth, but without the calories. Delicious!

Mr Coffee Maker

4. Vacation is one week from today! Holla!! We go to the same place every summer and it's always the best, most, relaxing 7 days of my year. I can't wait! I have already started laying out the Princesses clothes!

5. Oxiclean! I had a yard sale last week and was totally about to sell some of the Princesses clothes that had stains on them and a lady mentioned Oxiclean works wonders. It's changed my life! I saved at least 4 outfits thanks to this goodness! Where has this been all my life!?

Sorry for the dark picture. Laundry room light is out and you have to be a giant to change the light bulb.

July Recap and August Goals

I started July with some pretty lofty goals. You can check out that post at the beginning of July. Needless to say I pretty much failed at every goal. However, it's a new month and I have a goal of wearing this beautiful dress from KiKi La'Rue on the first day of school.

The Sweetest of Hears Maxi Dress - Yellow

Beautiful bodice!!

On to my August goals:

1. I will complete 30 days of the 30 day shred. I did awesome the first 10 days of July so I know with a little dedication and rearranging my schedule I can get this done. I might have to go to bed a little earlier and I will probably be really tired at first but it will be worth it!

2. I will stick to my meal plan! Besides how many calories fast food has, it is such a waste of money. I plan on meal planning today and planning for the days I know I will be on vacation and other places besides home.

3. I will register for the Bass Pro 5K and Glow Run.

4.  I will drink my water (through a straw! - best tip I got!! Thanks!)


What are y'all's goals for August?

Follow me on Instagram and MyFitnessPal at cdecker0