Raising healthy kids in a fat world

As I put my daughter in her new yellow polka dot bikini yesterday I wondered how I'm going to raise her to have healthy eating habits and a healthy mind set about her body in a world where wears surrounded by a twisted view of beautiful. 

Growing up my mom always had something to say about weight. If it wasn't about mine it was about my dads - who by the way wears a size 32 waist band and is by no means overweight. I think this is one reason why I'm so self conscious, but also because every person in my family is of "normal" size. 

Once I had my daughter I immediately  started worrying. I don't want her to struggle with her weight like I do. I don't want her to ever feel less than beautiful. I don't want her to go through the pain of feeling less than adequate. My husband and I decided immediately that she wouldn't be given sugar or processed foods. We wanted to raise her to make healthy choices in hopes that that would help with the whole weight thing. I struggle everyday with food and I don't want her to do that. 

So how do I, who have such horrible self esteem, raise a child to have great self esteem? How do you explain to your child why they aren't getting ice cream when everyone else is? How do you all deal with this? 

Weekly Goals Linkup

Weekly Goals Link up with Operation Skinny Jeans is back on this week! I'm on vacation, but I've got goals this week! I must keep myself from gaining 15 pounds and eating whatever my heart desires.




Goal one:
 Get moving!! I must workout for at least 30 minutes a day. This I have already accomplished this Monday morning by doing 2 miles on the treadmill. So at least I have one day down!

Goal two:
  No more drinking my calories! Summer is almost over so the beer drinking must stop! (Just kidding) But for reelz I can't function like a normal human being and drink. I don't really drink in moderation.

Goal three:
   Survive a week of vacation with a two year old! Isn't she adorable!?

   

Go link up!!

Self Worth

I'm struggling with finding my self worth. I have lost and gained weight so many times its ridiculous. I set goals for myself and fail within hours. I have been so hard on myself this summer. I have based my happiness on whether or not I ate well or screwed up. Even as I write this tears are being shed. I'm so unhappy with my self, but yet still continue to screw up.

Someone today asked me if I would give up 25% of my income to look the way I want to and honestly I don't think I would. I'm a fat girl with a fat girl mind set. Sometimes I'm embarrassed to be seen in public places with my family because I feel bad that they have to be seen with me. I feel like such an embarrassment to my family and friends. I don't think that losing weight would make me happy. I think I need to find my self worth in God before I can ever be happy.

This is such a hard post for me because it's real. I have to die to myself daily and start living for God or I will never be happy. The emptiness I feel cannot be filled by losing weight. I need a mind and heart change.

I leave for vacation today and I'm not sure my thoughts since I've been so unhappy lately, but I really want to try my best to live for God and let everything else fall into place. I need to be happy. I need to find my self worth.

So What Wednesday...

I'm SOOO over this week! I really just want to be a fat lard for the next two weeks and eat all my feelings since school starts in TWO weeks and I'm stressed to the max!!


So on to SO what Wednesday!!

• So what if school starts in two weeks, and I am refusing to go to school to set up.

• So what if my August goal was to do the 30 day shred for 30 days and it's August 6th and I've done ZILCH! I've thought about it! Does that count??

• So what if I should be cleaning my house and packing for vacation, but instead I'm sitting on the couch blogging and watching Pretty Little Liars (I may or may not be addicted.)

• So what if I bought three new dresses this summer and haven't worn them once. I may or may not have been a little optimistic about the sizing. Can I just say this has been a horrible weight loss summer!

I hate to be ungrateful for my awesome teaching job and having summers off, but it has seemed like the longest yet shortest summer of my life. I love spending time with my daughter and love being able to do whatever I want, but I am also ready to get back to my routine! I have to get this weight off. I have to become healthy and I have to quit making excuses!

Weekend Recap and Phone Dump

Good Morning Yall! Hope you had a great weekend! Ours was filled with busy craziness! Normally I would be linking up with Operation Skinny Jeans for my weekly goals, but lezz be honest.. I haven't really been hitting those goals and this week I will be getting ready for vacation so I know that it will be an unpredictable week.

Thursday I took the Princess to a water park close to where we live. She had a blast!

We had to stop and take a selfie!

We also had an ice cream treat. This is her "cheese" face.

 Friday we headed to Springtown to meet some friends. Their daughter just turned one so we met for dinner and some frozen yogurt!

Shirt from Target!

 

Saturday we had some friends over. They have three girls and this is the aftermath of 4 little girls all under the age of 7. You can definitely tell they had fun!!

 

 

Hope you guys had a great weekend as well! Tomorrow look for my post about getting ready for a week of vacation with a two year old!!

 

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Five on Friday

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Liking up for Five on Friday again!!

1. I'm obsessed with a new book written by one of my friends about adoption! I read the whole book in one night. It's a must read for anyone thinking about adoption!

Love Connection by Jamie Ward and Lesa Childress

2. SLEEP!!! About twice a year I wear out and right now is one of those times. I'm exhausted. My body physically hurts and I have a constant headache. I just need a good couple days to relax and sleep! Somehow even though I don't work during the summer I am just as tired as I am during the school year. Crazy!! Anyone else so busy?


3. My new coffee maker! I love being able to make one cup of coffee at a time and in any flavor! The donut shops coconut mocha is my favorite. It's like desert in your mouth, but without the calories. Delicious!

Mr Coffee Maker

4. Vacation is one week from today! Holla!! We go to the same place every summer and it's always the best, most, relaxing 7 days of my year. I can't wait! I have already started laying out the Princesses clothes!

5. Oxiclean! I had a yard sale last week and was totally about to sell some of the Princesses clothes that had stains on them and a lady mentioned Oxiclean works wonders. It's changed my life! I saved at least 4 outfits thanks to this goodness! Where has this been all my life!?

Sorry for the dark picture. Laundry room light is out and you have to be a giant to change the light bulb.

July Recap and August Goals

I started July with some pretty lofty goals. You can check out that post at the beginning of July. Needless to say I pretty much failed at every goal. However, it's a new month and I have a goal of wearing this beautiful dress from KiKi La'Rue on the first day of school.

The Sweetest of Hears Maxi Dress - Yellow

Beautiful bodice!!

On to my August goals:

1. I will complete 30 days of the 30 day shred. I did awesome the first 10 days of July so I know with a little dedication and rearranging my schedule I can get this done. I might have to go to bed a little earlier and I will probably be really tired at first but it will be worth it!

2. I will stick to my meal plan! Besides how many calories fast food has, it is such a waste of money. I plan on meal planning today and planning for the days I know I will be on vacation and other places besides home.

3. I will register for the Bass Pro 5K and Glow Run.

4.  I will drink my water (through a straw! - best tip I got!! Thanks!)


What are y'all's goals for August?

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