Weekly Goals

Let me start by saying keeping up with a blog and a life is a full time job. How do all these fabulous blog moms do it!?

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This is the new dress I just ordered and I can't wait to wear it!!
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Last, I'm linking up with Operation Skinny Jeans for my weekly goals.

Goal one (which I have yet to accomplish) is to not eat out!!! I want to cook healthy meals at home this week. It's so much easier to count your calories when your at home and I really need to get control of my eating.

Goal two is to not drink alcohol. It's such a waste of calories and really makes you feel bloated, which I'm tired of feeling.

Goal three is to survive the last week of summer school. This teacher is NEVER doing summer school again! It's brutal!

Mommy Guilt

So I want to start off this post by saying I'm a teacher, so summers are my time off (boy do I need it)! On a typical school day I wake up at 4:45 to get ready. I leave my house by 6, to be at school by 7 so that I can get everything ready for my kiddos and all my lesson plans done before school. School starts at 8:30, and then I can leave at 3:45. I'm normally home in time to get the Princess from daycare by 5. During the school year I don't see the Princess until at least 5 p.m. every night, and normally I don't feel guilty because I leave early so that I can get home early to see her.

Now this summer we have decided to keep her in daycare two days a week to keep her on her routine since she is more aware that mommy is leaving and she will be there all day. So yesterday was day 6 of my summer break and I took her to daycare and came home. I didn't have anything to do at home, there wasn't a reason I needed to take her, I just took her to keep her in her routine. I felt SOOOO guilty for taking her! I sat and caught up on Grey's Anatomy (holy crap so much has happened!!) and felt guilty. I know that she was being well taken care of, that she was having fun with her friends, but I still felt awful the ENTIRE time! I felt like the worst mom in the world. I left my kid at daycare all day while I sat at home and watched TV! As soon as I went and picked her up I told them she wouldn't be back till Wednesday, which is when she has to go because I have a three day conference.

Does anyone else feel like this? Am I a bad mom for wanting some time to myself every once in a while? I'm just so torn! Yes it was nice to be able to watch a TV show, but the way I have felt all day wasn't. Anyone have any advice on how to get over this!?

The Fitbit!

Yesterday was Day 1 with the fitbit and I am totally in love! It has made me so aware of the reason why I'm NOT losing weight currently. I have been tracking my calories with MyFitnessPal and then my FitBit keeps track of my calorie burn for the day. So I ate around 1,900 calories yesterday (which is way over what I'm suppose to eat), and then since I was pretty much sedentary yesterday I only burned 1,500 calories. Pretty much I'm eating more calories than I'm burning and I have a feeling that yesterday wasn't too far from a normal day. CRAZY! It is definitely making me more aware of what I'm putting in my mouth and what I'm doing. I started the Couch to 5K program on Monday that I found on Pinterest so I'm hoping that will help with my calorie burn. To anyone who is thinking about getting one I say take the plunge! I found mine on amazon, but you can buy them directly from the FitBit website. On to other news, it's Thursday and I have been a tracking fool since Tuesday! So here's to keeping it up and finishing this week out strong! Hope you all have a great rest of the week!!

The Plunge and Weekly Goals Link Up

This week our mini challenge for the 10 Week Challenge from Operation Skinny Jeans was to TRACK, TRACK, TRACK. I decided that I was going to make the decision this week whether to keep my online Weight Watchers subscription or go with MyFitnessPal (a free app that you can use on your smartphone). I was still kind of torn about what to do this morning. Every time I try to track something on weight watchers it would come up with no results. When I would put something into MyFitnessPal app it seemed to have everything. MyFitnessPal is free, and weight watchers is costing me $18.95 a month. Then I logged onto MyFitnessPal app and saw this motivation.



Holy Crap!! This girl deserves some major kudos and praise! She has lost over 100 pounds! You can check out her blog HERE

I have also noticed a ton of people who use MyFitnessPal use the Fitbit to track their calorie burn. So I started scavenging Ebay for a good deal and unfortunately didn't come up with anything. However, Amazon had one for $49 with free shipping if your an amazon prime member. So I am now the proud owner of this baby.

I'll keep you updated on how it works! Hopefully it will be in sometime this week!

 

Meanwhile onto my weekly goals!!

 

Goal one: Start running again!! I have found a couch to 5k program that I actually think I can do, so that is my goal!

 

Goal two: Cook at home every night! I went grocery shopping for the next two weeks so I shouldn't have to go to the store. I need to now cook all this food and not waste it!

 

Goal three: Start reading again! It's summer!! I can finally relax, read books, and take long bubble baths. All after the Princess is in bed of course.

 

Speaking of the Princess...

This was her Saturday at her 2nd Birthday party! I can't believe she turns TWO today! We are going to the Zoo to celebrate! I will be posting some pictures of her at the Zoo on my instagram. Don't forget to follow me (@cdecker0) for more pictures and updates!

 

 

Weekly Goals Link Up

This weekend I ate like a pregnant lady, so I'm over it and moving on!! I was too stressed out last week to post my weekly goals, but this week is a new week and I have 1.5 days left of school!! Can I get a whoo whoo!?! Anyone who is a teacher feels my pain right now. Kids are crazy. I'm crazy. I need a break!!

Anyway, on to my weekly goals.

Goal One: As part of the 10 week challenge our goal is to TRACK, TRACK, TRACK! That is my main goal! Tracking is huge! Plus I can't decide whether to cancel my weight watchers subscription or not, so this will definitely let me know if I need to keep it or can just track calories with MyFitnessPal.

Goal Two: I missed out on last weeks mini challenge which was to drink water so that is goal two this week. DRINK, DRINK, DRINK, CHUG, CHUG, CHUG! Less soda and more water!

Goal Three: Get my house cleaned!! My daughter turns 2 next Monday, and her birthday party is this Saturday so I have to get my house in order.

It's summertime people so let's kick it in gear! It's time to change our lives and feel better about ourselves.

White Shorts

So there is roughly two weeks till my daughter's 2nd Birthday, and I want to be under 200 pounds!! I also REALLY  want to wear my favorite pair of white shorts that haven't fit since I got married in 2008. So my goal is to do a low carb/no sugar cleanse for the next two weeks to hit that goal. I'm hoping that by making good food choices and exercising I will be able to make this happen.

Here is my plan of action:
Breakfast:
  Make Egg Muffins to eat for breakfast.

Snack:
  Almonds

Lunch:
    Either Lean Cuisines or leftovers. I also might eat salad.

Snack:
   Grapes (even though these aren't on the low carb/low sugar South Beach diet, I feel like they are ok for me to eat.)

Dinner:
   Low Carb which will include green beans, chicken, salad, mashed cauliflower, tilapia, and possibly lean hamburger meat.

Snack: Yogurt

I will try to post my recipes and pictures, because hopefully that will keep me accountable. I also REALLY want some new clothes from Kiki La'Rue and that is one of my weight loss rewards if I get under 200 pounds!

15 pounds people!! I can do this! I will do this! I will not give up! I will change my life, and my daughter's future!

The BIg Fat Ugly Addiction

First things first, I was too busy/sleepy to post for the Weekly Challenge link-up which I am super mad at myself for.  I will be back on the bandwagon next week!

Second thing, I have an addiction. Food! I imagine myself skinny, and where I will be by a certain date, yet for some reason I'm doing nothing to help that along the way. I'm tired of being fat, yet I ate oreos today. I'm tired of being fat, yet instead of going outside and running on this beautiful day I really just want to take a bath. I know I can do it, but for some reason I keep making excuses - too stressed out, too tired, too busy, etc..

I have lost weight before, I have eaten low carb before, I have ran before. So what is my problem!?  Last weeks challenge from the 10 Week Challenge over at Operation Skinny Jeans was to find your motivation, and honestly I'm not sure. I want to be able to buy cute Kiki La'Rue clothes, I want to be able to run a 5k, I want to be alive to see my daughter grow up, yet apparently none of these things are good enough motivators.

I went to the chiropractor Monday and they did a progress report on my neck. Part of that includes stepping on a scale that calculates your BMI, weight, water consumption, and how old your body is. The doctor looked at me and said, "How old are you?" "25", I replied. She said, "Did you know this scale says that your body feels like a FORTY year old!!" Honestly I was shocked, but not really shocked. I thought about the Biggest Loser show where they tell contestants stuff like that and they cry or breakdown. My reply, "probably because I'm overweight." I then went home and ate Mexican food. I need a wake up call!! I need to find my motivation!

My goal this week is to find my motivation, meal plan, and get the crap over myself and to stop being selfish about my weight, because honestly me being fat is me being selfish. It's about me caring more about myself than the other people around me who are being effected.