Fourth of July Recap

Hope you all had a great 4th of July!!

I got up with the intentions of doing the 30 Day Shred before we headed to my parents for a BBQ. However, I had my hair done the day before and I wasn't about to have to redo all that hard work Ashley did.  So I got ready and told myself I would definitely workout when we got home.


Love my new scarf!!


The Princess enjoyed her ice cream!

We got home early and I complete day 3 of the 30 day shred. I was really sore and wasn't sure how it was going to go, but I'm learning that it's getting easier!

Today will be day four and as soon as the Princess is napping I will be completing day 4! I will be weighing myself tomorrow morning before heading to STL to watch my favorite baseball team -- The Cardinals!! Woot woot!

Hope y'all had a great fourth and I will be posting to update you on the weekly weigh-in and how I survived eating healthy at the baseball game!

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Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away...

As I wrote my weekly goals linkup I was really in a low place. Click back one to read that. I don't want to relive it.

So I bought one of Jillian Michaels books on my kindle and started reading. I'm the type of person that in order to stick with something, I literally have to eat, breathe, and sleep whatever I'm doing. In Jillian's book she said we need to think about our long term goals and write them down. Imagine exactly what you are going to look like, what you are going to wear, and how you are going to act.

Long Term Goals

I will weight 150 pounds.
I will be tan with dark hair. I won't be tired everyday so I'll get up and do my hair and makeup everyday. I will wear cute clothes in NORMAL sizes.
I wqill have awesome legs and be happy. I will have a tiny waist and good booty.
I will run 3 miles for fun daily and do it easily. Kennedy and I will play outside for hours.
I will be happy. I won't worry about what I look like and whether people are judging me for what I'm eating.


The past DOES not define you; your present does.

Jillian talks about anytime you are down or thinking about going off the wagon, think about your long term goals and how you are going to get there. My long term goals are a ways off in my future so I'm also setting my July goals to break it down by month.

July Goals
1. I will complete 30 days of the 30 day shred.
2. I will be able to run a half-mile without stopping.
3. I will learn 5 healthy new recipes.
4. I will not eat fast food.
5. I will drink 8-10 cups of water a day.
6. I will NOT drink my calories.

There is no time like the present. I know that I have screwed up over and over again, but I need to suck it up, stop feeling sorry for myself, and instead kick my rear everyday!!!

Let's go friends!

Weekly Goals

Let me first start by saying I'm a failure. Every week since the 10 week challenge started I have made goals, and almost every week I have failed. Last summer I was so scared to get out of my normal routine (school everyday) because I was terrified I would gain weight. I ended up losing 20 pounds last summer. This summer, I weigh every week and gain weight. I wake up in the morning and feel bloated and swollen. I'm tired of feeling like crap, but yet I continue to eat crap. Today I woke up with my mind set, that I would start the 30 day shred and get this summer weight loss going. I ate well, and even walked half a mile. Then dinner rolled around, I WENT FAT GIRL CRAZY! I'm disgusted with all that I ate I know I had to gross my husband out. So here I am, writing to you again about weekly goals, that I FOR REALLZ need to keep, so I can stop being the Fun Fat Chick and start being the Fun Skinny Chick.

Goal One: Starting tomorrow NO FAST FOOD!! No matter how GOOD  Taco Bell looks I will not eat it! That being said, I am going to a baseball game Saturday, so I'm not sure exactly what I'm going to eat, but I will get there.

Goal two: NO ALCOHOL!! I feel so bloated and I know it's from drinking. I have drank almost all the alcohol in my house so I can't drink anymore!

Goal three: Get yo a$$ moving! 30 day shred starts tomorrow! Thank Jesus for 31 days in July since I screwed up today. I will do weight and measurements tonight as well as before pics.

I know that people struggle, but for some reason I feel like I'm the only one who continues to screw up on a daily basis. I really need to do a sugar/carb detox soon so I can cut these cravings, but I really have to mentally prepare myself for that so I'll let you know!

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Good luck on your goals this week ladies!!

Weekly Goals

Let me start by saying keeping up with a blog and a life is a full time job. How do all these fabulous blog moms do it!?

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This is the new dress I just ordered and I can't wait to wear it!!
Sass a Frass Maxi - Mint


Last, I'm linking up with Operation Skinny Jeans for my weekly goals.

Goal one (which I have yet to accomplish) is to not eat out!!! I want to cook healthy meals at home this week. It's so much easier to count your calories when your at home and I really need to get control of my eating.

Goal two is to not drink alcohol. It's such a waste of calories and really makes you feel bloated, which I'm tired of feeling.

Goal three is to survive the last week of summer school. This teacher is NEVER doing summer school again! It's brutal!

Mommy Guilt

So I want to start off this post by saying I'm a teacher, so summers are my time off (boy do I need it)! On a typical school day I wake up at 4:45 to get ready. I leave my house by 6, to be at school by 7 so that I can get everything ready for my kiddos and all my lesson plans done before school. School starts at 8:30, and then I can leave at 3:45. I'm normally home in time to get the Princess from daycare by 5. During the school year I don't see the Princess until at least 5 p.m. every night, and normally I don't feel guilty because I leave early so that I can get home early to see her.

Now this summer we have decided to keep her in daycare two days a week to keep her on her routine since she is more aware that mommy is leaving and she will be there all day. So yesterday was day 6 of my summer break and I took her to daycare and came home. I didn't have anything to do at home, there wasn't a reason I needed to take her, I just took her to keep her in her routine. I felt SOOOO guilty for taking her! I sat and caught up on Grey's Anatomy (holy crap so much has happened!!) and felt guilty. I know that she was being well taken care of, that she was having fun with her friends, but I still felt awful the ENTIRE time! I felt like the worst mom in the world. I left my kid at daycare all day while I sat at home and watched TV! As soon as I went and picked her up I told them she wouldn't be back till Wednesday, which is when she has to go because I have a three day conference.

Does anyone else feel like this? Am I a bad mom for wanting some time to myself every once in a while? I'm just so torn! Yes it was nice to be able to watch a TV show, but the way I have felt all day wasn't. Anyone have any advice on how to get over this!?

The Fitbit!

Yesterday was Day 1 with the fitbit and I am totally in love! It has made me so aware of the reason why I'm NOT losing weight currently. I have been tracking my calories with MyFitnessPal and then my FitBit keeps track of my calorie burn for the day. So I ate around 1,900 calories yesterday (which is way over what I'm suppose to eat), and then since I was pretty much sedentary yesterday I only burned 1,500 calories. Pretty much I'm eating more calories than I'm burning and I have a feeling that yesterday wasn't too far from a normal day. CRAZY! It is definitely making me more aware of what I'm putting in my mouth and what I'm doing. I started the Couch to 5K program on Monday that I found on Pinterest so I'm hoping that will help with my calorie burn. To anyone who is thinking about getting one I say take the plunge! I found mine on amazon, but you can buy them directly from the FitBit website. On to other news, it's Thursday and I have been a tracking fool since Tuesday! So here's to keeping it up and finishing this week out strong! Hope you all have a great rest of the week!!

The Plunge and Weekly Goals Link Up

This week our mini challenge for the 10 Week Challenge from Operation Skinny Jeans was to TRACK, TRACK, TRACK. I decided that I was going to make the decision this week whether to keep my online Weight Watchers subscription or go with MyFitnessPal (a free app that you can use on your smartphone). I was still kind of torn about what to do this morning. Every time I try to track something on weight watchers it would come up with no results. When I would put something into MyFitnessPal app it seemed to have everything. MyFitnessPal is free, and weight watchers is costing me $18.95 a month. Then I logged onto MyFitnessPal app and saw this motivation.



Holy Crap!! This girl deserves some major kudos and praise! She has lost over 100 pounds! You can check out her blog HERE

I have also noticed a ton of people who use MyFitnessPal use the Fitbit to track their calorie burn. So I started scavenging Ebay for a good deal and unfortunately didn't come up with anything. However, Amazon had one for $49 with free shipping if your an amazon prime member. So I am now the proud owner of this baby.

I'll keep you updated on how it works! Hopefully it will be in sometime this week!

 

Meanwhile onto my weekly goals!!

 

Goal one: Start running again!! I have found a couch to 5k program that I actually think I can do, so that is my goal!

 

Goal two: Cook at home every night! I went grocery shopping for the next two weeks so I shouldn't have to go to the store. I need to now cook all this food and not waste it!

 

Goal three: Start reading again! It's summer!! I can finally relax, read books, and take long bubble baths. All after the Princess is in bed of course.

 

Speaking of the Princess...

This was her Saturday at her 2nd Birthday party! I can't believe she turns TWO today! We are going to the Zoo to celebrate! I will be posting some pictures of her at the Zoo on my instagram. Don't forget to follow me (@cdecker0) for more pictures and updates!